searching for the words to say...

I've have attempted to write this post for a long time now. I've sat numerous times in this exact spot devoting myself to searching for the words to say. But, alas, there I sat, staring at the screen, with nothing. For a while, this frustrated me. "What is wrong with me? I love to blog! Why is this such a problem for me?" As I spoke before, I love this blog. What it has become, all the people I have met, the spiritual growth, everything about it has been life changing. I can't imagine going back to my life before. Once a blogger, always a blogger. This part of my life beats very strongly in my heart, so just know, you guys weren't forgotten. 

After a week of mentally "tossing and turning" in my head, I asked God to help me. "Give me the words to speak!" I asked. I even reached out to a few of my real life friends for guidance. "Just keep it up, it will come to you." "Take a break for a few minutes, your brain is just tired." All very good advice, but I knew deep down this wasn't just any ordinary writer's block. Something was keeping me from writing. Something far beyond my control. 

A couple days ago, I finally realized what it was. Or what the secret was. I felt very strongly, the Lord telling me to be still and quiet. (Emphasis on the quiet) "I will give you the words when I'm ready, child." Well, tonight, He did just that. 

I was catching up on my She Reads Truth plan, when I stumbled upon these amazing words:

"I must believe in His goodness, and that what He has saved me for is so much greater than what He has saved me from." 

As a believer in Christ, I can't doubt for one second that He hasn't saved me for something amazing. Do I know what exactly that is? No. But I must have faith and put all my trust in Him. He deserves every single ounce of it. 

While all of this is going on in my "blog life", God is also bringing me to stages in my life that are amazing, but I wasn't quite ready for.  In order for me to enjoy myself in these new stages, I have to ensure that my heart is in the right place. I don't want to go running ahead in the race when God hasn't even started the timer yet.

With all of this being said, I would like to thank you guys for being patient with me lately. I believe that the last two weeks, God just wanted me to be quiet and listen. Trust me, He had a lot to say.